shortcuts, pink wine and such.

January has this amazing ability to make even the most secure son of a gun feel like a piece of insect on a windshield. why is that ? i wish we had a GPS for directing us -happiness approximately 231 days away. (thank you Carmen the garmen) is there some shortcut that i missed along the way? because im suppose to do it the hard way? everything worthwhile is always a hard ass battle? or is it? do we like making things difficult.

i might just explode. i need some sugar water please. carbs in a bucket. you look back on situations and realize you could have not acted like a shit face and this could not have happened. what if. what not. truth be told if you always go on and be someone your not- well that ain't going to work out for you buddy.you also cant change situations or think them better. it is. it was.

my whole life i have always been outside looking in. making excuses for people and brushing off. don't. it 's okay if...

if someone does not want to be with you, see the light..
if the guy with the jeep does not want to come down 10%
if you cant afford dstv
if you are impulsive
if your mother does not like you ,but she loves you
if you see an ex getting married
if they thought you didn't suit the job (code name too old- wrong colour hair, boobs too small)
it 's not you it 's me.
if they want to see you, they will.
stop staring at your phone. move away right now. slowly . yes.
to get smashed and go streaking.
to try and be strong- but you re not.
to not make the bed for a week- I'm going to get right back into it when i get home.
to stop believing what these Cosmo quiz answers bullshit be.
to hate your name every other day.
to stop starving yourself for other people.
to throw a tantrum.
to drink coca cola 8:00 o clock in the morning- don't forget the ice.
to put on a cowboy hat and pretend to be someone else. eg. DORA
to be afraid.
to bee outspoken.
to wish you were 12 again , sitting in your magic tree.


so bloody what.get up. dust off. use the two most valuable fingers God gave you to be non verbal and strut your pretty ass right out of there. things wont always go as planned. 2 years. maybe 5 - the thing is never loose your light- never give up . when the going gets though - open a bottle of pink wine and listen too some bob.
it's only January- imagine what you can accomplish by the end of June hey?..