Monday, January 25, 2016

twenty thousand and sixteen hundredness.

 "the light of the morning see's you sleeping in my tent"...

2016 is here. you know where i stand with logic and resolutions. she is here, and what a hell of a year it's going to be.



i feel like i need to re introduce myself, 3kg heavier and happy. there it is..HAPPY. say what.
everyone laid their cards on the table and the truth came roaring out like a lion with a serious case of PMS.

i have been reading through some of my old writings, and i can recall each element that went into the writing process, the feeling, the motivation behind the post, each "what the eff"  and what i took from that particular piece of writing, how close i came to turning into a cynical, loathe myself, sarcastic eehrm .. (insert some kind of profanity related word). but then ...

i have found this boy, to you he might be someone ordinary just passing you by on the street buying some everyday household carton of heavy machinery , but to me, he is extraordinary,a little piece of magic. the intense love and mutual respect. giving me something to look forward to everyday.
as jou hart buite jou lyf rondloop

i never really blog about people, rather about experiences so that you , as person, can adapt these experiences and apply them to your current situation, and if so, to not make the mistakes i have made, you might learn from it or you might be inspired by it, but it must always leave you thinking. this boy is worth writing about.

you never realize how you have grown and how you have been shaped over the years by people, situations,choices or even words untill you follow a paper trail, either a diary, in my case my blog posts, e- mails, photo albums. you look back and you think you were a prissy little totter with no experience of life until it slapped you right across the face and left a nice flaming hand, no cup of tea or biscuit , just a nice donnerse  klap. you come to appreciate the difference in you and in your surroundings. damn, how far you have come little one.

and in ten years you'll look back on today and probably feel the same.

but that is what make's it fascinating and terrifying all at once. Facebook has this "what happened today in the 2000 and eleventy , (no no,read carefully). I always though  it was a crock of shit, until i looked back on a blog entry i  made 3 years ago,  do yourself a favor, ignore the skinny body or long hair you had way back yonder , or in my case the gaunt vacant stare with no life purpose,and appreciate how different your life and YOU are right NOW...

and how thankful you are.

 thankful you said hello to a stranger, gave your phone number in a moment of braveness..(or was it the wine)
 be thankful if you are sharing your life with a husband, a wife,partner, a child you might have had in the past few years, maybe expanded your family to two.
 The new house you just bought, the new job you might have started or going to start.
remember family and friends you lost...
new adventures.


point is, you are what you are NOW because of your past. embrace your future with care and BE THANKFUL.

2016 will be filled with long warm nights in a tent with a view...and a few g & T's in between.

and it is so easy with you.





Kom ons vat net die pad en gaan saam weg
Iewers waar daar niemand anders is
Daar waar ons nooit mekaar kan mis nie
In my hart voel ek goed en voel dit reg

Ek's verslaaf aan naby aan jou wees
Verlief met hele lyf en gees
Ja, jy is my alles, alles, alles
Ja, jy is my alles, alles, alles


Jy is my alles, alles

Gee net in gee net oor gee jouself vir my
Sodat ek als van jou kan hê
Jou als kan wys wat in my lê
Ek kan nie wag, jy's die krag wat my hart dryf
Ek's in die donker sonder jou
My laaste kers brand ek ook nou

Want jy is my alles, alles, alles
Ja, jy is my alles, alles, alles

Jy's nie net my vriend nie
Jy is my liefde
Jy's nie net my liefde
Jy is my hart
Jy's nie net my hart nie
Jy is my lewe
Jy's nie net my lewe
Jy is my alles, alles








Bobby van jaarsveld- my alles.