October -national depression and anxiety month

i don't sell sex, i sell a story.but yet they ignore me because of this.
i have made good friends and have lost great one's.
i have struggled through something you would see as childish and up surd and i have become stronger than you were yesterday or the day before . i have missed life and have regained love.somewhere in between i found myself in a box and with some help - burned it -broke it -spat on it.

i have cried and beaten a floor to near pulp,but it never answered. i am ticked off by things i laugh at the next and i cry when I'm happy now.
i love my family.but i cant stand them sometimes.
i am confused.and i cuss because i don't know how to put words too my feelings, but i can make you laugh.
i have clinical depression yet i am blind in one eye and that receives more attention. i have the scars, but some never healed
i always thought it was her but it was me all along..
i find peace and acceptance in water yet i drown very easily in words and stares..
i am frightened of my own mind but i speak it more often than i should.
i love with my whole heart and i have only a little piece left because of that
i want to be everything yet i struggle to show people who i am..
i am afraid of the shadows but i have a lifetime of shadows in my head. more . always . more.i love the sun but stay behind your curtains.
i am NOT broken.you are just not seeing. i have a story to tell.
can i hide my face in your jacket for a while?....


October was national awareness for anxiety and clinical depression. more and more young people are taking their own lives because of everyday stress- bullying or just not feeling adequate enough for anyone or anything. i read about a 12 year old swallowing a bottle of pills and leaving a suicide note

is society expecting too much? just dragging us by the ears and throw you away like your an old pair of shoes? what is acceptable? and what is not?does it even matter?

i think the message I'm trying to get across is that everyday is a battle for someone with anxiety and depression . not just October. support and be grateful you are not at war with your feelings or yourself.it doesn't always help telling someone to rise above it. open your eyes. your ears and your heart.
support. protect and listened.