bloed is mos maar dukker as water.

i have been raised to always believe in people and too always see the good. i was moulded and formed by a warm ,caring ,loving family. sometimes absolutely crazy but fiercely loyal and always honest.my dad always says " it's when i stop fighting i stop caring. so i will never stop"


in my life i have been hurt by people because of this fairytale believe of mine. defending , holding on too something that no longer exist, being blinded. they have lied and cheated me. using me to manipulate and cheap lipstick me.being betrayed by someone you let into you heart, your family, your life stings more than anything in one's life. i am 23 years old and it took me this long too realize how important my family is too me and how they keep me alive every single day.

my dad for always being there , even at 4 in the morning when i was covered in blood, even when we shout at each other or i need money.
my mom for always steering me in the right direction from a youngen. and for all the love and understanding.
my sister for giving me some of the best memories i have..like on a subway in New york. when she is angry at Kfc or when she's driving in her little blue getz.
my cousins for the most exciting holidays. who can forget pietertjie.
my little brother Marc. whom i love dearly and who has been through so much in his life and turned out to be a handsome strong young man with a mind of his own but a heart that cares for his mother and his family to an extent that he will probably move in with me and my sus one day. ( imagine the three musketeers X9) we are going to have defenders and own a ranch in the moremie with horses you know we have it all planned out.
Louis , livies, whom i always argue with , moenie my sweetie pie noem nie. because it's fun if it's about music or love and the sneaky things we do or if it's just being lazy by ouma and oupa van chaka's swimming pool playing that ridiculous swimming game.

klein ben. for being a teenager and giving us endless grief. we love you none the less.
Lorine for being there for my mom when she needed you. i will always appreciate that, and for always believing in me and the little van zyl not to mention making us look fabulous over December holidays. for being so outgoing and a hell of a personality.
amor, for being an absolute inspiration all my life, you taught me the importance of family and sticking togheter,that you can be anything you put your mind too if it's one of the best athletes in south- Africa ( 6Th in the comrades marathon) or one of he best doctors.
Lanie ,Neil for the family holidays in the moremie and he pee pot never quite making it through the night without someone either stepping in it or messing nice warn urine everywhere in the tent. and also the amazing love you have for each other.a connection beyond words.
lane for inventing "oom krokodil" (yes, my dad is crocodile Dundee and my hero.) and for being such a smart ass who makes us laugh with your little sayings.
Ewan for keeping me fit over holidays , not only my body but my brain,because he is such a brilliant sports man and one of the most intelligent little people i know. einstein se moer..
and then the family glue , the two grandmothers and my grandfather . ouma van joetsie you will defend your family and your children with your life.your dirty jokes and your sense of humour is such a delight for a 80 year old woman you are going strong and there's no sopping you.
oupa and ouma van chaka. for all the walks and surprises. if it's running around with a walking stick swearing at someone, drinking cola and water thinking it's whiskey or ouma's amazing baked potatoes and soft voice that instantly makes you always feel so much better and loved.

these people are my life. i live and breath for them. and we will always have each other no matter what. we will always be there for each other. we will never hurt lie or steal from each other and we will never take one another for granted. i thank the Lord for all of you every day. you keep me on my toes, you keep me smiling with your stories and you keep my heart warm.

appreciate every conversation. every phonecall , every goodmorning and goodnight for your family is the most precouis thing besides you.and one day when you are old and you look back you will never be alone for you will have the most splendid memories to look back on.never go to bed angry and always tell them, whenever you have the chance, every time, you love them. no "if's or but's"
i love you.