you live to crutch another day.

so i have not been here for a while .


i went running on a ordinary Monday afternoon and fell over my own two feet down a nicely tarred road . downhill. and tore my ankle ligaments. just a regular Nash thing to do to get my injury in for the year.it could have been much worse. if you know me you wont even notice the crutches, unless your a guy and it affects you, but he played his role well picked up and said time to go, it doesn't rain but it pours. this is my fifth time on crutches so i am basically like a circus pony on them. I'm over the cursing of the universe and all that, i just silently fall into this sticky mess of sadness. but at a certain point i get so irritated with either the crutches, the plate i just dropped or myself. so its also understandable that everyone watches me with forks and lashings ready.

but today i was brave and outstanding in my choices. i decided to throw the crutches and dance. now remember i tore these bubblegum delights two weeks ago and that is about as much sitting on my ass time as i can handle. but i never refuse to believe. be save and loose your chance. push a little and a new story begins with your courage. i got out of bed this morning with my blue little friend and i danced my heart out for 4 hours. and if your a Doctor or a physio you should have not even started reading this- because i am not normal, my feet will never take me on normal journeys, my mouth will always speak the truth,my knees will always have healing scabs and my legs tell the stories of where i will never go again.


I may sometimes be weaving thin to the core and throw myself face first into these cluster fucks. but I'm not a Budweiser and bowling kind of in the -middle -of- nothing -girl,if you take the time to get to know what I'm all about and how many roads i will follow you down,the story and weight of your timeless efforts will be your reward.

and i will be damned if I'm too afraid of breaking along the way.

so yes, i am in absolute agony , but with a ear to ear smile. me and my blue companion are shouting at each other, but eventually the painkillers will drown it out. and i will still be smiling.
and maybe later i 'll challenge you to a dance off on die Heuwels Fantasties. you ain't seen the crutching dubstep hidden ankle yet.