Tuesday, August 31, 2010
"so take the still frames and photographs in your mind"
" i would rather be hated for what i am , than loved for what i am not"
andre Gide,author-
it has been a rough month with migrains and flu , seeing the wolves umongst the sheep.being attacked for what and who i am..but none the less i keep on learning and experiencing new things not just about myself but about being human.there were times when i wanted to explode or be someone else . and nights where my bed felt cold and the little child inside of me wished home was just a block away so i could hop up out of bed and demand to the friend im sleeping over at that it's about that homesick time now so ciao and be out the door.
it feels like there is constantly someone hiding in my mind trying to sabotage what i have been working so hard for . trying to please everyone and always put their needs above mine. and maybe this trip has made me realize just that. that i am also important and that i can stand on my own two feet and that there are no instinct like that of the heart.and that i dont always have to take someones words too heart and fall to peices.
so yes i am young and a student at most things , i am loud, i am compatible yet unpredictable,exspressive and not afraid to tell you when you have wronged me. but i also make mistakes and pick myself up .and sometimes i open the wrong doors and windows in my heart for a little sunshine to get in and with it slips through the "destroyers" (i call them the "destroyers, yes i am reffering too people , because they walk all over the good things in life and are set on pulling people down with them) .
but it is only when you have walked through it's shadows, outlines and doubts and broke your heart with it's intensity that you can begin to understand the path that was chosen for you.
when the wind howls through the empty rooms of your heart and the third person in your mind starts too throw out ideas ,you can hush them, because you have been there and you are moving forward.the only way by moving forward is saying goodbye and accepting. so accept your shortcomings with open arms, it makes you interesting and one day someone will love you for that.
and if this lesson is the only thing i take back with me ,not money, not a tan or the joy of being a better dancer. then so be it. it is one of the best lesson there is to be learned.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Green day- good riddance
andre Gide,author-
it has been a rough month with migrains and flu , seeing the wolves umongst the sheep.being attacked for what and who i am..but none the less i keep on learning and experiencing new things not just about myself but about being human.there were times when i wanted to explode or be someone else . and nights where my bed felt cold and the little child inside of me wished home was just a block away so i could hop up out of bed and demand to the friend im sleeping over at that it's about that homesick time now so ciao and be out the door.
it feels like there is constantly someone hiding in my mind trying to sabotage what i have been working so hard for . trying to please everyone and always put their needs above mine. and maybe this trip has made me realize just that. that i am also important and that i can stand on my own two feet and that there are no instinct like that of the heart.and that i dont always have to take someones words too heart and fall to peices.
so yes i am young and a student at most things , i am loud, i am compatible yet unpredictable,exspressive and not afraid to tell you when you have wronged me. but i also make mistakes and pick myself up .and sometimes i open the wrong doors and windows in my heart for a little sunshine to get in and with it slips through the "destroyers" (i call them the "destroyers, yes i am reffering too people , because they walk all over the good things in life and are set on pulling people down with them) .
but it is only when you have walked through it's shadows, outlines and doubts and broke your heart with it's intensity that you can begin to understand the path that was chosen for you.
when the wind howls through the empty rooms of your heart and the third person in your mind starts too throw out ideas ,you can hush them, because you have been there and you are moving forward.the only way by moving forward is saying goodbye and accepting. so accept your shortcomings with open arms, it makes you interesting and one day someone will love you for that.
and if this lesson is the only thing i take back with me ,not money, not a tan or the joy of being a better dancer. then so be it. it is one of the best lesson there is to be learned.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
Green day- good riddance
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