i haven't blogged in a while. but i received a gift worth blogging about ...one of those gifts that touches your core, your being and what makes you YOU.

it's nothing spectacular like a car or something that will make you do back flips, but something that you will guard with your entire existence. which you will, if you are lucky receive once in your life.
 a cd.
 a plain little fragile cd,
with 15 songs.
each song represents a moment in my life, a memory,..

 i almost forgot what it felt like to feel special, to mean something, to be important.

 I've always said in my life that if i made a difference in one person's life that would be enough, and tonight as i sit here i realize my worth and what i mean. it took a cd to give me the push i needed.
never let yourself become a shadow, a grain of sand or just a gust of wind. you are worth so much more.


Two constant people in my life. i was floored at how well these two people knew me, and then i realized how many years of friendship, tears, love , laughter and fights there has been between us. weddings, funerals, heart attacks and heart break.

i leave you with the words of one of the songs.. may it bring you the peace it brought me...

Put your make-up on
Get your nails done
Curl your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim so they like you, do they like you?

Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl
Take it off
This is what you want, to belong, so they like you
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to, give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

Mm, mm

Get your shopping on, at the mall, max your credit cards
You don't have to choose, buy it all, so they like you
Do they like you?

Wait a second,
Why, should you care, what they think of you
When you're all alone, by yourself, do you like you?
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to, give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to bend until you break
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

Mm, mm

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to, give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

Take your make-up off
Let your hair down
Take a breath
Look into the mirror, at yourself
Don't you like you?
'Cause I like you

colby caillat- try